Julie's story on drug addiction

Getting addicted to drugs is unfortunately much easier than you might think. Most people won’t realise they are addicted until it’s too late. There is a lot of information around saying that cannabis is a gateway drug. Some people agree, most disagree; see what you think…

Julie first used drugs when she was 13. It was only cannabis; no one ever gets any problems with cannabis. Do they?

By the time she was 16, she had moved onto speed and was only doing it recreationally, once or twice a week. As time went by she started using speed more frequently until it became a daily occurrence.

When she turned 21 she started to use cocaine. Again, it was only recreational on Friday and Saturday nights. However, it very quickly started to take control of her week and she soon began taking it on a Thursday and Sunday night as well as Friday and Saturday.  She was soon finding it difficult to get up for work and even making excuses not to go in. After a short while, she was sacked from her job.

Julie started going out with Ashley (who was also using cocaine). The 2 of them together continued to use cocaine more frequently until they were both addicted. At this point, to help pay for their habit, Ashley started selling drugs.

Julie wanted to get help for their addictions but this thought soon disappeared once Ashley started buying in new drugs and they began using more and more different drugs like MDMA. Whilst all of this was going on, Julie became pregnant, yet still carried on using drugs.

Julie had her baby, and at this point decided to try and break free of the drug circle. She left Ashley, but soon moved back in with him. This time their child was not with them and was taken into care.

During their period of separation, Ashley managed to accumulate thousands of pounds of drug debts. Ashley and Julie were continuously threatened and attacked to make them pay up. One night Julie came home and found that some other drug dealers had broken into her house to look for Ashley, who happened to be upstairs at the time and had jumped out of the top floor window to escape. Julie later found Ashley in hospital with broken legs as a result.
 
After this Ashley moved abroad and was never heard of again. Julie moved in with another friend of hers, Sam. Within a few weeks they were both taking crack cocaine and Julie found herself getting even more addicted. They moved in with some heroin addicts and here Julie smoked heroin.

In desperation to get money for drugs, Sam had carried out an armed robbery, managing to steal £300. In return, he got a 6 year prison sentence. Realising enough was enough Julie decided to leave everything behind and ask her family for help. She eventually got the proper help she needed and things were on the up for her. She moved in with a respectable boyfriend, her family were supporting her and she was getting in touch with old friends. She also received the right medical support in order to beat her addiction and now seems a completely different person for it.

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What finally made you stop taking drugs?

I got very drunk one night and a guy in a pub said the wrong thing to me, so I glassed him in the face. I ended up spending 4 months in prison for ABH (actual bodily harm). Whilst I was inside, I learnt a few valuable life lessons and decided that a life of drugs wasn’t the life for me. I was also able to get away from all the ‘friends’ I took drugs with, which really helped.


You talk about so-called drug 'friends'; what are these?

These are the people who you consider to be your friends, as you spend a lot of time with them. Once you are clean from drugs you soon realise that those people who you thought were friends were only intent on getting their next hit and couldn’t care less about you. Real friends are the ones who support you through your treatment process and are there afterwards to support you on the road to recovery.


What advice would you give to someone who’s in your situation?

In order to stop taking drugs completely and rebuild your life, you have got to want to. I spent time on drug treatment plans, fobbing them off and cancelling appointments all because I didn’t have to give up taking drugs.


Some people see drugs addicts as people who have failed at life and have no qualifications. What would your response be to that?

A lot of people like to find an excuse to take drugs, whether that is someone who is homeless and needs to get away from it all, or a top businessman who needs to let their hair down or even a footballer earning thousands of pounds a month. I once scored heroin with someone who is studying at university.

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What crimes do drugs cause?

There are all sorts, ranging from stealing to pay for your habit, to dealers assaulting, raping and even killing those who get in their way or cause them problems. Up until my twenties, besides the drug use, I had never committed a crime. Once I was addicted to the drugs I had to steal to feed my habit, which landed me in trouble with the police and got me my criminal record.


Did you ever overdose or know anyone who overdosed?

I once took ketamine and my whole body went absolutely numb. I couldn’t move; I couldn’t speak. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. Someone else I knew injected himself with heroin and it soon became apparent that he had overdosed but all of the people he was with left him. He unfortunately died as a result.

I also met a young woman in prison who was a heroin addict. She was really optimistic that when she left prison she was going to turn her life around and make a fresh start. Sadly, shortly after being released from prison she was found dead of a heroin overdose in her bathtub. She was 25 and had a young baby.


When your boyfriend was dealing from your house, did the police ever find out?

Yes, a few times. I remember I used to come back home some days and find that they had raided the house during the day. I would go in and everything would be all over the place; the wardrobes turned over and the cot upside down. I was at home once when they raided the house. I was sitting there in my lounge watching TV and suddenly I heard a huge bang and the door came caving in. It was a really frightening experience.

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I imagine you’re not the biggest fan of the police then?

On the contrary, I think they do a brilliant job. In general, if it wasn’t for the police our streets and communities would be in a much worse state than they are now. In my experience, even though I was breaking the law using drugs, the police would still take an active interest in my welfare, checking up on me and contacting my parents saying that they were worried for me.


When you and your boyfriend were dealing drugs, what did you do to make more money?

Absolutely anything and everything! When we were cutting we would put in anything white that could be crushed. We would put in antihistamines, paracetamol, cleaning detergent and even some of my contraception pills. My boyfriend once gave someone a line of coke made up mostly of washing powder.


If someone is offered drugs, what should they say if they don’t want to do them?


It depends on the situation and person. Initially, say no and be firm. If you don’t want to then you don’t have to. You can also make an excuse, maybe that you are about to meet your mum or meet your boyfriend. You can also lie; tell them that the last time you took it that it was disgusting and you didn’t like it. Or even say no, because when somebody you know took it, it made them really ill......and if you don’t know someone, make it up!


If someone is reading this and is thinking about taking drugs, what would you say to them?

You may think it’s harmless, but how do you think all drug addictions start? Do you think I wanted to be addicted? Also, you really have no idea what the drugs contain - take that from me as someone who used to add all sorts of stuff to it! Something else to consider is that you have no idea how your body is going to react. I have seen people overdose on a single E pill, and I overdosed on ketamine and it was only a small amount.

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If someone does overdose, what should you do?

Always call 999. It can really be a matter of life and death. Don’t have letting someone die unnecessarily on your conscience.


What are drug dealers really like?

They are very horrible pieces of work. This was demonstrated when my boyfriend owed them money. They used to ring me up threatening to hurt me, telling me “we want our £2,000 by tonight or we will be over.” That was obviously very traumatic, and when I used to see my boyfriend snorting our only source of income, it made it even worse. This same gang used to throw bricks through my windows and vandalise our property, which was horrible bearing in mind we had a child indoors.

We were once at a club and the dealers were there. They had an argument with my boyfriend and we left. As we went to the car they came out and stabbed him.

My boyfriend went to another drug dealer's flat and there were 2 of them in there. The drug dealers he owed money to went round, beat the living daylights out of him and then poured petrol all over him, all because he owed them money and they wanted it back. They used to give him about £2,000 worth of drugs each week to sell for them. Because we were addicted, we would use up some of this and the dealers would keep giving us more and more drugs to sell which they added interest to, so the money we owed kept rocketing.
 
One of our ‘friends’ called Ryan owed money to another gang, so this gang found one of Ryan’s friends, who happened to have nothing to do with the debt, and kept him tied up as a hostage for a week. Every so often the friend would be made to call Ryan telling him to give them the money. At the end of that week, the friend was released but he was in a right state; it turned out one of the things they did to him was to set dogs on him.

Another young woman heroin addict I knew owed money to another gang of drug dealers. They drove her up to the woods and made her have sex with each of them in order to pay them back for the drugs.


How important are your family and friends when you are using drugs?

They are the most valuable thing you can have. Without their support I wouldn’t have been able to do it. It really helps when they have a positive attitude and encourage you rather than telling you that you will never recover.

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